In my life i have been in pain. Not the pain in which u can see but the pain in my heart and soul. I have lived in the darkness trying to find my way to the light but I will never find it.All the people who have come into my life leave me...the people I fall in love tell me the love me, tell me they wish to be with me yet they leave me with more pain. I am a curse on this would. One of which will never be lifted. I fight everyday to find my peace and light but in the end all I get is pain and darkness. I will never know true happiness and no matter what anyone says to me I and I alone am doomed to walk this curse you wish to call life alone. I fear one day the ones i love now will leave me...no...its not a matter of who will leave me..it is when will they leave me. They can tell me they will leave me all they wish but in truth they are the ones who leave. I wear a mask of joy and happiness to please the world around me but inside I am in pain and wish the pain would stop.No one truly wants me..no one truly loves me. I have been told for most of my life to die for it would make the world happy for I am dead..I do not know if this would be true or not I dare not find out.I do not wish to know if death is better for me or worse.